ok. so since not a lot of people that i know come on here, i feel more...comfortable with posting what's on my mind.maybe someday i'll be able to post on ze myspace.hah. So, i made one because someone really important to me made me realize i should vent my feelings because it'll feel better.so here it goes my first blog.
today, i realized the thing i'm most of afraid of is slipping through thee cracks. i'm scared of failing myself and everyone else, but why? I wish I could just live freely without ever worrying what lies ahead of me. at the same time, i don't want to completely fuck up my path. I'm just so overwhelmed with all of this work I've had to do lately, in reality it's not a lot, but I've been so used to having it easy and now it's like I'm being drowned into this huge pile of work. And yeah in a great sense, it's my fault for allowing myself to slip through these cracks and procrastinating my days away. But, I'm a teenager, there are way more other things I want to do. I want to explore the world, I've spent 16 years in l.a. and I think it's crazy how some people get really upset over one person of the opposite sex, it's like we're all stuck in this little box and no one wants to come out and outside of the box lies so many more opportunities. These opportunities are passing me by. I wish I cared more about important things rather than things that only matter now. I need to pick up my act. So i shouldn't be here, because I need to finish an essay haha. But, this definitely felt good. Even if no one reads it, i'll pretend someone does.and they're nodding their head right now because they know exactly how i feel.
