Tuesday, November 6, 2007

UGH.

being home is a nightmare. i hate it so bad right now. last night, my dad was being an asshole, i saw him when he came home then family came over and he was acting normal.then, i get home from denny's with my sisters and my mom starts nagging my sister about a check. they start arguing and my dad fucking like comes out of nowhere and starts nagging me about cleaning my room.
note: this was at 10:30 p.m. and i have school. so then i tell him i'd clean when i got home from school, i needed to sleep. then we start arguing about who knows what, and it gets physical.well i didn't hit him back, but he pretty much kicked my ass, and the worst part was my mom was standing there THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME and did absolutely NOTHING. I was so hurt. Inside and out. Me and my dad never argue, we're always on good terms.am i just supposed to guess when he's in a good mood now? he drove me to school this morning, like every other morning. i give him a kiss on the cheek before i leave the car, the whole ride to school i was contemplating on whether i should today. it was hardly a kiss, i'm still so ticked off by last night.seeing him now, makes me so angry.i can't be in his presence.everyone else acts as if nothing happened last night.he's in a good mood with everyone else but me.it's so fucking ridiculous. being at school just added on.having to deal with all these pranksters and assholes. i couldn't hold in my emotions. i want things to be normal again, but i also want my dad to be sorry. it's not ok that i'm 16 years old, and my dad still hits me. i'm pretty much a grown-up now, what gives him the right?

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